I wonder what am I doing
why each moment is the same
meeting expectations then only to fall
When will it change? Why does it get harder?
I dont even know what I expect of myself
It just keeps getting harder, getting up.
Repeating myself,every word every motion every step
I look around and I wonder what did I get myself into
nothing keeps getting better, it just gets harder
I feel the sun on my skin, but see the clouds
it gets harder to see the light, it gets harder to laugh
it just gets harder.

How I felt during work today!
I would be a raging alcoholic! (sorry if I offend any recovering ones
)
I realise I am the bitchiest person to work with, I expect things done a certain way, and when they are not done I have a snit.
Well, I was having a snit.
If someone cant take orders, dont put them on orders. I dont care about Nicole, she did fine. She didnt even know how to do it. But someone who has worked there for 3 years cant function, ugh!
Every five orders, she was “lolo, Lolo. Lolo”
Greg has a headset, he hears everything.
I was trying to tell her something, and she gives me attitude. Dont fucking me interuppt me when I am telling you something. You shut your damn mouth and listen. Then you can say something. What happened? Five seconds later, she asked what the deal was.
“I already told you twice. You keep telling me you knew. ” I snapped.
“I was taking payment.”
I almost threw the coffee pot at her. ” You cant multitask? How hard is it to listen to what I am saying and to take cash? Not hard!”
“You dont tell me.”
Dont tell you? I will tell you!
A multi order comes in, at my lane, and then customer says after I had cleared the first order, she wanted to combine the two now. “I’m sorry its too late now.” I said.
The customer when she is at the first, asks to combine the order. Over the headset I hear, “I’m combining the two orders.”
“No you are not!” I snapped. “With the multi orders you cant combine them because it messes up the orders…”
You know this! You work here how long?
“Why not?” interuppts me. Uh I was just explaining why. Then when I try to explain why again, she tells me she wants to, and blah blah.
“You cant combine the orders, because it the orders get rearranged, the orders gets remade…its busy…no..”
Greg told her no.
I just had it. I was tired of talking to her. Hearing her. I was such a bitch, but having to repeat myself over and over, it rubbed me raw.
well that is interesting.
448 people viewed my blog today.
I was happy.
Until I realised….
out of that 448, 341 were from Iraq.
Oh wow. People from Iraq were checking out my blog.
Cool.
Until I realised what entry could have held their interest.
Are you serious? No way! sure enough!

Note to self: Never UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES use the words
” I bombed in Drive thru” ever again!
They might think I was serious, and try to recruit me.
Note to other people: “Bombed” also means fail. I failed in Drive Thru!
However thank you for reading my blog!
Peace!

aw that is so sweet! But tell that to the guys who perfer this:

or this

so forgive me if i dont believe the words coming out of your mouth, playa.
Men talk the talk, but they dont walk the walk.
One day Kaileigh and I were sitting on the couch watching a commercial. The commercial was about Shick razors for women. I looked at her.
“You are not shaving until you are thirteen, and you are not shaving above the knee.” I told her.
Melissa looked at me. “Dont tell my daughter when she can shave!” she said.
“I will!” I said, and hugged Kaileigh. “Cuz she is my daughter.”
Kaileigh pushed me away. “No, I am mommy’s daughter!” she said. I laughed.
“Ok then, but no shaving above the knee!”
Kaileigh sighed. “Ok.”
I saw this today, and it reminded me of that conversation. I wished someone had told me all this stuff when I was younger.
- Bodies are hairy. No matter the gender, your face will have hair and that is more than okay.
- Your butthole is going to have some hair too. And maybe your nipples. And your tummy. And where ever else.
- Stretch marks. Those are a thing. Everyone gets ‘em. If you don’t, you probably don’t have skin.
- Vaginas smell. Every vagina has a scent. Don’t worry about it! (Unless something seems wrong, then go get it checked out! No need to feel embarrassed or ashamed.)
- Vaginas come in all different shapes, sizes, colors, flavors. All are beautiful.
- Penises come in all different shapes, sizes, colors, flavors. All are beautiful.
- You don’t need to shave anything if you don’t want to. It’s tooootally not mandatory.
- Sometimes people get butt acne.
- You can have a vagina and want short hair and think dresses are just the worst.
- You can have a penis and want long hair and think dresses are just the best.
- You can wear whatever you want and style your hair however you want.
- You can even think whatever the hell you want.
- People might tell you that you are a girl because you have a vagina. People might tell you that you are a boy because you have a penis. People will tell you what your gender is. But in reality, you don’t have to be that gender. You don’t have to be either of those genders.
- You are what you are and it’s just the worst thing if you try and hide that.




