The first thing I did today when I got home was burn incense, and a sage candle.
I had to clean and purify my home after something bewildering scary thing happened last night.
I had been sleeping, not dreaming, just in a very comfortable and in a happy deep sleep.
Suddenly something changed.
A certain heaviness pressed in around me, a sudden barrage of scary images and thoughts hitting me.
It came out of nowhere, hard and fast.
Why was I feeling so under attacked?
I was afraid to open my eyes and see what was in the darkness around. So I focused on the fear that was crushing me
Fear of what?
I had no idea where it was coming from.
It was so thick.
I began to recite my favorite mantra. It usually calms me whenever I am frightened or need to meditate.
Nothing, it wouldnt work.
Ok. my favorite prayer.
My favorite affirmation. Nothing was working.
Instead, it was like a movie. The horrible images, fear kept going despite my efforts.
this wasnt good. If my favorite mantra, affirmation and prayer werent working, how was I going to get control of myself? Of the situation?
Then i began to sing my favorite hymn.
My fear began to ebb.
The images were going away.
I laid there trembling. Was this a test? Of my faith?
No, my faith had to be strong.
My faith was strong.
I cant be questioning it.