Happiness would be smelling the flowers, having coffee in an outdoor cafe.

Reading a book by a river, having a picnic and cooking for my lover…

simple things would make me happy..


Let Go Of Fear Now! 
“Archangel Michael says that fear is the only thing interfering with your happiness and plans. He wants to show you how to release any worry or dread so you can feel safe and secure. This card indicates that you’re ready to let go of control issues and trust that everything ultimately works out for the best.

I am afraid to lose my control. I am afraid to trust. I am afraid of change.

Yet I am tired of being stuck

I just want to be free




By stimulating the Pineal Gland, Sodalite clears the Third Eye, and deepens meditation. Sodalite is also very helpful for those who seem to be encountering many difficulties in their life, as it can bring unhealthy, ingrained patterns to the surface to be released, and it can promote deep self-examination to reveal underlying causes to one’s problems. When dealing with such covert issues, one should work with the stone consistently, by meditating with it and possibly sleeping with it under the pillow to help bring productive dreams.


I have been sleeping with Sodalite the last couple of nights,  I noticed quite a difference.

The last couple of nights I dreamt that someone was trying to steal my power. Personal power perhaps. Whatever it was, it left me quite angry, I had to get back my power. I always did defeat my enemy.

However last night, I lucid dreamt that whoever was trying to go after me, was becoming more powerful. My rage was frightening me, so I had to wake up. I am firm believer that emotions such as rage can be a person’s downfall or weakness in battle.  Because I was using rage to fuel my power, I was in a sense – weak.  As I was coming out of my dream sleep I heard someone say “Quiet! She will hear you!”

“Of course I can still hear you!” I shouted.

At first I thought it was Jordan and GF speaking.

I then realised I was still dreaming!

Sodalite also started to strengthen my third eye. I hadnt had a vision in a while. No matter what I did, I would meditate. Use my master crystal, Use Stilibite, nothing would help ease the tension in my Brow chakra.

Then because I had a small piece of sodalite on my brow chakra, it was remarkable.

A little bit worked.

30 traits of an empath

Being an empath is when you are affected by other people’s energies, and have an innate ability to intuitively feel and perceive others.

I just finished reading an article about being empath, and I nearly choked! Out of all the 30 traits, I found myself relating to 11 of them.

I was told by 3 psychics that I was pretty intuitive. When I was younger I had a lot of precog dreams, but because I changed medication, it really affected me. I was depressed. Angry.

Thankfully, I am off those meds now. I am happier than I have been. Yea for me!

You can read the article here:

30 traits of an Empath

  1.  Being in public places can be overwhelming: Places like shopping malls, supermarkets or stadiums where there are lots of people around can fill the empath with turbulently vexed emotions that are coming from others.
  2. You know when someone is not being honest: If a friend or a loved one is telling you lies you know it (although many empaths try not to focus on this because knowing a loved one is lying can be painful). Or if someone is saying one thing but feeling/thinking another, you know.
  3. Digestive disorders and lower back problems: The solar plexus chakra is based in the centre of the abdomen and it’s known as the seat of emotions. This is where empaths feel the incoming emotion of another, which can weaken the area and eventually lead to anything from stomach ulcers to IBS (too many other conditions to list here). Lower back problems can develop from being ungrounded (amongst other things) and one, who has no knowledge of them being an empath, will almost always be ungrounded.
  4. Constant fatigue: Empaths often get drained of energy, either from energy vampires or just taking on too much from others, which even sleep will not cure. Many get diagnosed with ME.
  5. Creative: From singing, dancing, acting, drawing or writing an empath will have a strong creative streak and a vivid imagination.
  6.  Need for solitude: An empath will go stir-crazy if they don’t get quiet time. This is even obvious in empathic children.
  7.  Gets bored or distracted easily if not stimulated: Work, school and home life has to be kept interesting for an empath or they switch off from it and end up daydreaming or doodling.
  8. Finds it impossible to do things they don’t enjoy: As above. Feels like they are living a lie by doing so. To force an empath to do something they dislike through guilt or labelling them as idle will only serve in making them unhappy. It’s for this reason many empaths get labelled as being lazy.
  9. Intolerance to narcissism: Although kind and often very tolerant of others, empaths do not like to be around overly egotistical people, who put themselves first and refuse to consider another’s feelings or points of view other than their own.
  10. Will not choose to buy antiques, vintage or second-hand: Anything that’s been pre-owned carries the energy of the previous owner. An empath will even prefer to have a brand new car or house (if they are in the financial situation to do so) with no residual energy.
  11. Can appear moody, shy, aloof, disconnected: Depending on how an empath is feeling will depend on what face they show to the world. They can be prone to mood swings and if they’ve taken on too much negative will appear quiet and unsociable, even miserable. An empath detests having to pretend to be happy when they’re sad, this only adds to their load (makes working in the service industry, when it’s service with a smile, very challenging) and can make them feel like scuttling under a stone.







I just finished cleansing my crystals, I realize my window sills won’t hold them all so I laid them out to charge.
Then I realized they may not get enough of light, but that’s ok. It’s the intent that counts!
I kind feel naked without my ametrine and citrine pendants but oh well.
Happy day!


Its Summer Solstice!

Going to grab all my crystals, when I finally wake up. (still sleepy) and start charging them on this Magickal day!

Since I missed the Sun rising at 3 am this morning, I can still use the rest of day and night.

Its looking to be a wonderful morning outside!

Enjoy your day!



This post might get me a lot of flack.  I really dont care. Its my opinion.

So a coworker and I were discussing gay marriage. How unfair it was. Why it was ok in some states for cousins to marry but it was horrible for same sex marriage. In some countries it was ok for child brides (yuck) but it was a death penalty if anyone was homosexual.

The irony of people believing in God and Religion is unbelievable. Here they are willing to believe God created everything. Everything around us. He created us in His own image. Yet the very idea of two people of the same sex being in love is an abomination!

Think about it. If  marriage between two men, between two women were truely so evil as the bible says, wouldnt there be a second Sodom and Gomorrah already? Do you really think God allow this abomination to continue? If it went against his will?

The bible is hearsay. If one thinks about it. It has been re-written over and over. Lost in translation. No one truely knows what Jesus said. What God decreed.

However we know:

God is Almighty!

He lives and works through us.

and those who discriminate, and  deny those should be married, who should love, are saying they doing in God’s name? Really?

In God’s name? By God’s will?

I am sorry, but did God talk to them? Did he come to them in the middle of dinner to preach “their” version?

I think its quite opposite. More like the Devil’s mouth piece. spewing their arrogance and hatred.

God created us, therefore it stands to reason he would create who we should love. He has chosen for us! This was designed for us at birth. That would mean homosexuality was in our DNA.

If a man loved a woman, it was because God designed it. If a man loved a man it was because God designed it.

also by that reasoning, does that negate free will?

Are we puppets in the grand scheme of things?

I was asked a very serious question.

What if I was gay and I came out to my parents, would my parents disown me?

The question would be yes.

My parents would disown me.

I admire any person coming out that is amazing. It makes me sad that parents would turn their back on their child.





“say its true there’s nothing like me and you. I’m not alone tell me you feel it too”

-The Corrs

Do you ever have a dream where you wonder if it possible it could have been a memory of a past life?

I had one once. I even spoke fluent chinese in my dream. A pyschic confirmed I had been servant girl in Asia. That I loved walking on the beaches. That the red I always saw in my dreams, was the color of the clothes I would wear.

I would do tea ceremonies. Mostly I was a serving girl.

I had a serious ankle injury that led to my death. It wasnt a pleasant death. A violent death. That any pain I had in my ankles, wrists and head had to do with my dying in my past lives.

Most times I would wake up singing in fluent french, even though I know french at kindergarten level.

that is kind of scary isnt it?

Last night, I had a dream.

It was romantic as it was heartbreaking.

I believe it was in the 1920′s or perhaps some other time period. I was the German Cultural Attache to Russia. I was a widow, whose husband recently died in a war. I had a son.

I was at a party at the German Embassy in Russia, enjoying myself. When I saw him. He was far older than myself. He was so handsome. His blonde hair turning silver. He was quite fit. How old he was I couldnt tell. He was mesmerizing, and it was as if everything inside me knew we were destined to be together. (he looked like an older Emile)

Our eyes met.

He came over, and he spoke with perfect english. Which was strange if he was russian, and I was german. He introduced himself. (I never knew his name in the dream) He never told me who he really was. I had assumed he was a diplomat like myself.

We spent the entire night dancing, eating, drinking wine and vodka. He took me home. Ask if he could see me again.

We spent time together on his terms, he enjoyed playing time with my son.

Then one night he asked me to marry him. I said yes. We made love that night. It was beautiful.

One morning, my son came running into the room, excited. “Its Papa in the newspaper!” he cried. My son called my lover Papa, which he didnt mind. He had seemed thrilled by it.

I took the paper from my boy, and opened it. All color drained from my face.

“The Prime Minister of Russia in a scandalous Affair with German Cultural Attache!” I whispered. There were pictures of us walking in the park with my son, kissing under the tree. Even of me in my bedroom in a form of undress.

“On the eve of war, the Prime Minister is caught with one of his dalliances. Can we trust him to lead us, while he scratches his itch with his whore.”

the paper fell from my fingers. He was the Prime Minister? How could he have hid this from all this time? How could I have not known? How could I have been so stupid?

“mama what is a whore?” my son asked.

I patted his head, “Its an adult word,” I choked. “Go finish your breakfast.”

I heard him leave the room, and I sat down and cried.

I heard my name being called.

It was him. I wiped my eyes frantically. Grabbing my shawl, I wrapped it around my shoulders and walked to the window.

He was pushing the gates open, when my groundsmen stopped him. I could hear their heated words.

As if he sensed my gaze, he lifted his head. He found me watching him from the window. There was so much despair, anger and love in his eyes. “Let me explain. Please. I can explain.” he shouted.

I fumbled with the window latch, and shoved the window open. “You lied to me.” I cried.

“I assumed you knew who I was. When I realised you didnt, I just couldnt tell you. It felt so right. You were the only one who didnt demand my time, didnt demand things of me. You accepted me. You loved me. There wasnt pressure. Every second that passed I knew you were my home, my heart.”

I shook my head. “How could you let this happen?” I threw the paper at him. “you let them take those pictures! My son will think I am your whore!” i let out a sob. “he will hear people talk!”

And that is when I woke up.

All day the image of myself at the window, with him below kept haunting me. “My son will think I am your whore.”

My despair at having my son thinking of me was devastating.

However, I believe in real life I would think I wouldnt care what people thought. If I was in love. Their opinions wouldnt matter to me. As long as my son was happy, I was happy. They could fuck themselves.

That is how I knew I was in different time period. My preoccupation with people’s perception of me. As a widow, I would have had more freedom than a single woman. If I was a man’s mistress, it  wouldnt have matter.









vagina’s are able to stretch wide enough to give birth to a fucking baby and then return to it’s original size but of course being penetrated by that grass blade you call a penis is what’s going to make it “loose”

Uhh. The baby doesnt come out of where the penis goes in…

I am honestly concerned for the state of sex education in America

why there is such a high pregnancy rate in the states.. no one tells them the stork doesnt exist, and a woman doesnt really lay an egg!!!

I find it unnerving that people have excuses not to discuss such an important issue with their children. Religion, its awkward, etc.

I also find it unnerving that people will not use some sort of birth control while having sex. I dont care if its your religious beliefs, its a burden on society that you are popping out more than 4 kids!! the economic system cant support your little bunny family. Snip it, use a condom, use a pill, use a spermicide use something!!!

I also find it unnerving that some people have no idea what an STD is. AIDS? what the hell is that? my jaw dropped. How long have you been on this earth and you dont know what AIDS is?
That is a scary thought!!! Ignorance is not bliss, its not cute! Their excuse was again religion. They had no idea because their religion didnt believe in homosexuality, contraceptives.

Last time I checked, AIDS wasnt just a homosexual disease!!!